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27 June, 2011 21:44

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*~Bonnie Lea~*

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Papa Roach, “No Matter What”

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I need you right here, by my side
You’re everything I’m not in my life.
We’re indestructable, we are untouchable
Nothing can take us down tonight
You are so beautiful, it should be criminal
that you could be mine.

And we will make it out alive
I’ll promise you this love will never die!

No matter what, I got your back
I’ll take a bullet for you if it comes to that
I swear to God that in the bitter end
We’re gonna be the last ones standing

So believe me when I say, you’re the one
They’ll never forgive us for the things we’ve done

And we will make it out alive
I’ll promise you this love will never die!

No matter what, I got your back
I’ll take a bullet for you if it comes to that
I swear to God that in the bitter end
We’re gonna be the last ones standing
We’ll never fight, we’ll never fade
I’ll promise you forever and my soul today
No matter what until the bitter end
We’re gonna be the last ones standing

And everybody said that we would never last,
And if they saw us now I bet they’d take it back
It doesn’t matter what we do or what we say
Cause nothing matters anyway!

No matter what, I got your back
I’ll take a bullet for you if it comes to that
I swear to God that in the bitter end
We’re gonna be the last ones standing
We’ll never fight (We’ll never fight) We’ll never fade (We’ll never fade)
No matter what until the bitter end

>weekend

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Yesterday was a blast.
Drew and I took the kids to the Corning Museum of Glass.
I think we had more fun than they did, but it was a nice day trip.
Then we went to visit Drew’s sister at Elmira College.
She gave us a mini-tour, the kids played in the fountains and ran through the grass and climbed in the trees.
It was awesome.
Great weekend so far.
Today will be interesting, though.
All five kiddos, plus Drew’s little sister, plus Drew’s daughter.
At a birthday party for my newly one year old niece!
Fun times, fun times!
Coming shortly, a couple pics of the birthday girl, Missy Moo.

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>broken, but stronger

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It’s weird.
To think about Anthony.
To miss him so much that my heart still breaks, and the tears still fall when I see a picture.
It’s weird to think about him. To miss him. To want him to be here with us.
But, at the same time, to be in love with someone else.
To want to spend forever with him.
To imagine us growing old together.
It feels like I’m being pulled in two different directions.
It feels weird to miss Anthony and wish he were here… but to be in love with and dream about our future with Drew.
It feels weird to come to terms with the fact that Anthony was my past.
He’s gone, there is nothing I can do about it, and there is no bringing him back.
And Drew is my future.
I had a dream several months ago.
Drew and I had a baby.
But Anthony was there, and he helped me pick out a name.
I think sometimes about how, if Drew and I ever managed to have a baby, I can only imagine that I would wish Anthony was there to share that moment with me.
I know that when the kids grow up and graduate and get married and have kids of their own, I’m going to ache for Anthony.
Even though I have no doubts at this point that Drew will be there my side.
It’s such an odd feeling/thought.
Two very different places in my heart.
I can’t imagine my life without Drew anymore.
But I still wish Anthony could be here with us.
It’s confusing.
Having Drew doesn’t make me miss Anthony any less.
It doesn’t make me not wish he was still here.
Drew doesn’t fill the empty space in my heart that Anthony’s death left.
But Drew has created a new spot in my heart.
My heart has grown.
Broken. But stronger.
If that makes any sense.
It barely does to me.